Miles Away

I have been away for months and got busy with the hustle and bustle of life. My husband had his vacation and we spent some quality time together and with the kids. I must admit that distance and time has also taken its toll in our relationship. All those months of separation created some silent conflicts and misunderstandings that even the high speed internet can't fix. It is different when two people sit down together face to face and talk things to down. Sometimes I wonder how we have done it.. one answer always come to my mind -- it must be love.

We see to it that we rekindle those feelings by going out on dates, making each other laugh, always being together and doing things together. I always thought that we are different if not opposite with each other. He has a wild and lively spirit while I'm the quiet and reserved type. Two puzzle pieces that come together and compliments each other.

It is sad because we have to make sacrifices for the sake of the family and our relationship has to take the backseat. We always see to it that we still put effort in making each other feel special even with the circumstances. With eyes wide shut, we tolerate the pain of separation because we have a family to raise and we are parents to make it happen.

Trip to the Movies

Watching a movie has always been a great way to relax and to escape from the realities of the world. It can take you to a far away kingdom or be the leading lady of the man of your dreams. Although I am a book lover at heart, movies are also excellent mediums to gain knowledge and expand our imagination. #1 on my list is LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL, a rare kind of film because it touches almost every kind of human emotions. I thought that it was impossible, but this film did.. It made me cry, laugh, think, angry.. a roller coaster of emotions! Here are some of my favorite movies I can watch over and over and OVER again (get it?).... drop me a comment to post your favorites... ;)

Proud Moment

My Yna when she won as first runner up in Ms. Healthy Kid. She sang "Rainbow Connection". It was one of those Mommy's proud moments. She will always be the winner to me. Mommy has nothing to give you except hugs, kisses and this poem I made for you

An Angel Without Wings

Angels are supposed to be in the sky
Making GOD happy, and flying high
But you are here with me and not above
Spreading joy and smiles and love

I want you to know that I will be thankful forever
I will keep you from harm and will leave you never
Even from life's tears and pain,
Mommy will be here before and after the rain.

I will cry with you and laugh with you
Don't be afraid to try and be the best in what you do
For you are destined to do great things
You are an angel without wings.

L O V E Y O U B A B Y . . . . .

Rainlover

I have always loved the rain. I love it more than the sun or summer. I just love looking at those water drops. Even if it's gloomy, there is this feeling of hugging and just wanting to be closer to the ones I love. I guess I am most vulnerable when it is raining. Just listening to the raindrops makes me want to reminisce and think. There is no perfect time to reflect than when it is raining.

Have you ever played under the rain? Well, I did. When we were young my brother and sister would play under it. Running around playing tag or making paper boats!! my parents seldom permit us to do that because more often than not we would end up with colds. Rain brings back memories of a simple life and that once I was a child.

I would love to dance in the rain someday.... with my husband of course.

MAY THE RAIN BRING YOU HAPPINESS & SMILES....

Queer Change

This may sound a little off track to what i usually write, but I just have this weird feeling about the environment that I would like to share. I was riding today in a public utility vehicle with my daughter and it just struck me.... things really are far from what it used to be. Not only do I see the rapidly changing environment but the human lifestyle as well. Things, music, food, traditions, animals, humans, trees, almost everything are all evolving!!! I wonder if the next generation will appreciate the beauty of simplicity.

I still remember when things are simple. Now, everything is so hard. I wonder if the world is in quiet chaos. QUIET CHAOS?!! what the heck is that? I don't know.... I just fumble the words in my ever thinking mind. I guess it is a result of man being indifferent to the things going on around him. Pretending he won't become affected or telling himself that the world will always be revolving and that everything is just A-OK.

Something is wrong. I just hope mankind will discover what it is soon before it is too late.

Bloom Where You Are Planted...

"Bloom where you are planted.." I read this line at some book in our college library and it stuck to me ever since. It was the time of my life when my ambitions are in its highest. During college, we are filled with excitement and wondering on how our future will be. We all hope of a better life and a bright future.

Looking back now, and a bit wiser now.... things don't usually turn out the way I exactly saw it. There where a lot of opportunities that were turned down and crossroads that defined the path I took. Making choices really is hard but standing by those choices will prove to be the most difficult of all. If you are married with kids or unmarried with a child or children, priorities change. I know that every mom could relate that it will always be the kids that will top our list and not ourselves. Whatever it is that I wanted has to take the backseat.

Here I am.... I am blooming where I am planted. I may have big plans for me back then, but God has bigger and better plans for me. He made me a mother to two wonderful children and a wife to a very loving husband. I am not just making the most out of it, I am enjoying every minute of it. There is no other place I wanted to be more than here.... HOME.

for my Tita Neneth

Losing someone will always be painful especially if the parting means it will be forever. My Tita Neneth passed away last July 5 and she was living in the US with my grandma and other two aunts. She died of pelvic cancer and they told me she was in pain. I saw her last pictures and though she lost weight, she still has that happy smile across her face. She was always strong. She was fighting to live, even in her suffering. I can still remember how she taught us about life, that we should finish our studies, get a great job and help my family.

I guess I will never have the chance to thank her for all the things she has done for me. After my father died (I was 10) she sent me and my other two siblings to school. Its just sad that she never saw my two kids. We have not talked since I conceived my first baby. I know I disappointed her, because I started a family too soon. I still have the guilt feeling because I know they expected a lot from me. Guilt feelings not only for her but for my mom as well. I know she will be somewhere safe and happy. Together with my Papa and itay.

I hope she will find it in her heart to forgive me. May she look down upon me and see how fulfilled mother I am together with my family. I will never forget you and I will forever love and miss you....


In memory of my loving aunt...